Mentioning either of these men in this series will seem odd, because they really aren’t worth mentioning however, their purpose will lead somewhere in the future.
I never really had deep feelings for either Joe or Kye. Both of these men were just happenstances within my life, but they do have meaning within my story.
I met Kye through MySpace (yeah, that MySpace). We happened to have some of the same acquaintances therefore our meeting was eventual.
Kye was a decent guy. He just had a drug problem. We had sex twice. One of those times really wasn’t sex I suppose, because he came before he ever got in, so there was that.
Joe was another man I met through one of my brother’s friends. He was much more interested in me than I was in him. At one point he rode a bicycle 23 miles to come to my house to see me. At that point I slept with him, and then told him to leave. I know this is pretty screwed up, but I didn’t really have any feelings for him, and didn’t want him to come over to begin with. He kept persisting on coming to my house, so I said okay. Then, whenever I found out that he rode a bike over, I felt almost obligated to sleep with him because of his efforts. I understand how idiotic this sounds, but women have often been conditioned for this. We have been led to believe that we owe men something. To be quite honest, I still struggle with these feelings of obligation to men, but I’ve gotten much better.
I felt like both of these men had some sort of feelings towards me. I’m not certain how strongly they felt about me, and this is probably because I wasn’t tuned into them. I felt more towards Kye, but he always had other things going on in his life, and I was just a standby friend to him. Because of this, he became back burner material to me. Plus, I was just never into the drug scene. Drugs weren’t my thing, and still aren’t. I smoked pot, and drank quite a bit, but that was it. I never liked anything else and preferred to stay away from it.
With Joe, I didn’t even really like his personality. He was an ass hole, obnoxious, and strange. I was happy to totally ignore him every opportunity I got.